The majority of our home universe’s processes take place outside of human awareness. This is not simply due to our lack of scientific understanding, but because the doors are locked and we haven’t the keys within the human condition. Its perceptionary state and consciousness..leaves us in partial darkness.
Most of our universe consists of dark energy (73%) and dark matter (23%). This leaves a humbled 4% with the veil having been lifted. The 96%, much of it may be impossibly beyond our condition to adequately observe. Alas, some pieces will become more detailed in time. The human is patient and persistent, if nothing else. All things change, as long as time is allotted.
This 4%, and perhaps the occasional bleed over from the 96, this is where this work draws influence. Please enjoy the lights, the auditory pleasures, the finest of blisses, ecstasies, and the pits of torment to make it all so...rich. Let us investigate all that this realm has to offer! This is “The Visible Spectrum”.
Generations of will nested away
Earth wails as a newborn into the void
Instinct drives them through coded DNA
Stars' visible light guide the humanoid
They finally are beginning to see
That they've evolved together with purpose
Consciousness exists uniformly
All things are one in the grand calculus
All stare into it like a grand mirror
What do you see, observer? My old friend
Once torchbearer, once pallbearer, now here
I crave your presence, what does that portend?
I'll share with you a secret that I know
Follow the pain to the morning star's glow
There is more goring in hunger he flaks
Evening victory for the Matador
Starred canopy erupts in fireworks
Resounding tales of our conquistador
Elusion binds me to the ring mía amore
He now chases a dazzling muleta
Like a tango all moves close to the horns
Mesmerizing moonlight dances el espada
He breaks form, mourns forlorn, "mi querida"
He finds his footing back within balance
Cape, blood red, heart oozing, "Alexandra"
Beneath starlight he's called what's dead to dance
Ay, ¿Qué absuelve esta hambre?
Libre deseo de liberarse
I must admit the most dire mistake
Was I just deluded for loving you?
That lie, a fever that broke at daybreak
My swayed position what are you to do?
No not this, although many have accrued
Many times I could have listened much more
I heard your voice and knew what to construe
As it wavered in startled fear, your wars
That friend is why I called you my comrade
It's tough as to which is my gravest sin
Who puts their weight on a friend in combat
I gave you a hand that could never win
What a mess, this is not how I visioned
Leaving a love in superposition
Not enough sleep
Not enough sleep
The artisan of insanity is cackling at me
Not enough sleep
Not enough sleep
The artisan of insanity is cracking at me
Chisels away
Crack by crack
More and more at the thresholds I lack
Observer in you
Is the observer in me
But we still don't see
Some nights never end
I've seen many of them
Let's roll B-side
After all, I love you
Black static abound
The smell of burnt steaks around
Another light year
Cosmic rain is here
Prestine waters cristen me
Glisten on my skin
Trying so hard now
Vying for you and for me
Crying Sunday rain
Let the energy pass through you
Or choke under its pressure
And be stuck in place
Hurriedly they type
Hasten all beating heart
What they were building
Now falls apart
So you were there all along
Some intelligence
My words are worthless
Dimensional overlay
It all passes through you
Breathe and reset
Brick walls
Hugging me at my window like the mouth of a cave
A delapitated house, New York
In all its glory
Rain falling
Isn't it?
Isn't it, lovely
Sunday, subtle rain
Moonlight fills a street puddle
No one sees you cry
What soul still lingers here?
This city has no spirit
I'll take my sushi and split
Over a million people
And it still ain't shit
Roll with me
Through the golden fields
Of dandelion encrusted space time
I once knew a lady put under by some strange curse
The only way that you could speak to my fair lady was through a song or poetry verse
So as you can imagine my words became laden
I'd write many reams to my far away maiden
The times had me nearly delirious
Because the rhymes were nearly injurious
Words flowed like a wine
Before my dearly divine
Every ode offering up my sincereness
For wouldn't you guess, that nevertheless
When it comes to mysterious curse, and poetry verse, my lady's an ardent empiricist
My love is not
Plastic fruit
Which waits for company
Candy red and blushing
But offers nothing
My love is not
Hollow visitation like plastic grapes
My love is not found in these places
xNo
Even amidst subversive skies
The stars still act as atlas to the heavens
How do you reach those who are falling?
Perhaps I fall too
Just enough to catch you
Because I love you
No need for oscillation
Like a pendulum
It's become a perpetual balancing act
Every act ends, this is Shakesperian
As a moment dies
Surely some carrion
I can be your beast of burden
When called upon by the great spirit
To meet now, as we have
We conferred allies
In any fight ahead
I will come to your aid
Meditation
I was tuning in to a distant set station
It was bliss
I'm stirred as the body calls
Carnification
Instant transmission
You want out
You called
I was far away
Alas, here to stay
Tuning into to your world
Frequency set
Cadet
Time to get to work
You can always go back
Reality
It's like a tuning fork
What's your pitch
What're the notes?
The song of divine plane
Hit them in accordance
And you'll be transported
Like a flip book, it all moved so swiftly
Transfixed by the beauty
Anytime I looked, I saw something I had never seen before
These new eyes
The multi-dimensions of beauty
It made me sorry I was a fool to have missed it
And now I miss you
That beauty was latent all along
In that I find sollace
My will was good
Until I got tangled up by the vine of desire
As it entangled me
It became clear, it intended to see me to the grave
This grave desire
How many life times until I shake it?
Wherever you find yourself off to
May your cloudy skies depart along the way
While the trees seem dead, and life seems dreary
It’s a guise of winter’s day
It takes the remnants of what was left when summer’s had its way
Rejoins the scattered pieces and forms a warm crochet
Forget the ghosts, forget the dead, forget all you’ve left behind
The winter wind whispers dear “your world will redesign”
Know I smile, happy as you deserve the open azure blue
I will always remember fondly all the good times hitherto
I’m sorry for the days I made the gray storm clouds brew
Deep inside I’m somewhat hurt, kind of like the hurt in you
But may those days we leave ever far behind
And disappear forever into the morning’s summer shine
Here’s one to the clear sky blue!
Our worlds will redesign!
Not a day passes where I don't await your arrival said the sun to the moon.
For as long as the world rotates, it keeps my head spinning.
So long as the particles vibrate, to hold form, I hold my space for you.
Until my space shatters, then I'll reform and wait for you once again.
This is our sacred ritual.
Through the tides of time.
There's always space for you in mine.
There's always a place for you in my quatrain.
Après tout, je t'aime.
And you're wondering if I feel it too
And I do
A biting rage for the sick world
And my prolonged exposure to it
Some ancient pervasive fog
Some interfacing layer
Some long arching wail that I'm caught up in
Why? I don't know
For what reason,
Are you and I?
I don't know
It trails the entire land
There's no escape
It's binding, it's blinding
And sometimes it binds me
And sometimes it blinds me
To the simple goodness embedded in some moments
The treasured trinkets of a darkened dreary and oh so tired landscape
And so I sing to the simple joy
The sun brings bounty, golden bathing light
To nothing better
Birds bathe
in golden light
And sing the joy
of summer's sight
Here's another one, to my dear friend:
It's titled, "Fruit Loving Masochist"
Sparrow, his plume blood red
It covers his chest like an adornment
Of royalty
Still reaching
For the blackberry
You know I love you right?
I'll fly with you through the wingspans of this life
And any more you'll have me
No doubt this is sacred
September enters with autumn bells
As the foliage determines to fall
You load a barrel with shotgun shells
Unable to forgive yourself
You hear this lack of it all around you
You say your father once haunting you as a living, now does as a ghost
Your mother dementia laden, never really knew you as she was supposed
This throne of throes, perched your porch
Your papers in order
Darkness descends
The night is myopic, cold, the metal even colder
It bites back
And like a rocket the shotgun shell rips
It must have looked to you as a firework
As it propelled you out of this world
Your skull some autumn cantaloupe
Harvest for those determined still to live
You'd have understood
You had been there yourself
You called ahead of time
Help is on the way
But you told them to only expect a dead body
And as you said, you were
And as you were you weren't
Where does the billowing spirit go?
Time in our world is..
The illusion maker
For it takes away
Everything..
And like September had only entered
With the echoing of the stratosphere
Like a rocket that has propelled you into the sky
It has gone away
May every body of water pull to the ocean, no matter how arduous the path. May every drop be determinant
Step into my labratory
Close the door, hear the storm, now it's coming down
Step into this simple story
To the beat of allegory
At ten o'clock they slam the doors
I exhale so lightly
I don't know anymore
O' brother I don't know anymore
We all whisper so lightly to the storm of our wars
My brother beside me
He don't know anymore
Says the boats up beside me
But I can't see the shore
I whisper so quietly
I don't know anymore
O' brother I don't know anymore
He says the boats up beside me, but I can't see the shore
My brother once told me you've a heart filled with gold
I look up so slightly
I'm getting so cold
Now the skeleton he bangs on the door
I grab my knife tightly
I'm done with this war
The boats up beside me
I think I'm this sure
Wake up this morning
Arise from my bed
A whip to the summer
A shot through my head
Could this be the life I seek to live
Cause what's worth living if there's no giving giving there
I wanna give it to you like the birds give out to flight
Give it to you like the stars give out the light
Give it to you girl in the summer night
Now it's alright, cause what's worth living if there's no giving there
As of this date, this website is still in the design phase and will likely be public around new year. This section I’ll reserve as a place for spiels, journal entries, and so on. As long as it feels useful, interesting, or therapeutic to do so. I created this website to have a place to archive poetry in a way that is more resistant to the elements. This isn’t an exhaustive list, but will become more of a default storage place henceforth. It’s a little tough going through some old work to be honest, some better some worse. But all productive for ultimately refining a better way. This is always the ultimate goal. I wish I had more time to write, but the best writing requires a mediative/trance-like state that can sometimes take hours to get into. The past few days it has been necessary to hop from life chore to life chore in a way that doesn’t allow the most vivid channels to open up. That’s life, the age, the era. I’ve got a few works I would like to run with. Huge aside here, but in the back of my mind I’m always looking to meet a skilled pixel artist to work on a video game with. That’d be a fun project. I’ve got the technical skills and am a huge fan of writing.
Life has gotten busier than I'd like and personal projects have been hitting the back burner. I’m a Linux system administrator and all incoming projects are mostly vapid. To the degree that I don’t even care to elaborate. I intend to give more energy to personal endeavors going forward. I suppose I’ll wrap up this site soon enough and stop obsessing over little issues in formatting. It eats a lot of time just to ease perfectionist obsessions when they arise. The JavaScript has been fun to play with, but I’m awfully tired of projects involve tech at the moment. I’d like to read and write some more. And just generally enjoy well-adapted leisure, taste of the waters of life. It’s tough to say which poems and such are worth storing on here. I suppose I’ll stop obsessing over that too. Anyways, many things to do, my eyes on the azure blue. Bon voyage, friend!
So I went ahead and pushed this live in a very rough state. For some devices it may be mostly fine, others a total mess. I haven't had to screw around with scaling too much and it's a bit of a game of whack a mole. Unfortunately my job takes up the mass majority of my day, so it may take until the weekend to get everything in order. It’d be nice to use this area for my personal thought, beyond the status of this site and tech stuff. And to use my frivolous tech time to work on pentesting. All soon. Very soon. Anyways, I'd like to take a walk before having to hit the hay. So off to wonder the street and maybe the wood. Ya know, I used to get a big rush anytime I completed this entire process, the web design, code, server configuration, and hosting. I still do to some degree, but it makes me think back to all the things that have lost their innocence. Once a newcomer, there's still plenty more to come of that for me. That latent joy on the horizon, fosters a varietal of hope. I can feel literal tears of joy coming at that gift. Life sometimes seems like one of those colorful fast moving picture books. Someone dazzles you zipping through the pages, so captivating and yet over so quickly. Life is some kind of dream, but is it any less sweet?
I wrote a fun little piece this past Friday that included a perspective on love that I'll share at the end of this. I'm sitting on a small bit of poetry I’ll push at some point. In my initial rummages I forgot about an incomplete concept piece with some haiku I may have to dig out. I’ve been preparing to start a new job as a “software engineer” on the 28th. It began with a cold call from a recruiter and everything lined up ideally, here I am a couple interviews later. The job seems more appropriately titled “devops”, lots of backend scripting. It will nearly double my salary, which I suspect will be the single biggest percentage increase in my go at IT/tech. Most importantly it’s entirely remote. Hopefully this entails more free time as well as quality of time that is free. I get to train my replacement at work, a fresh student trainee. It will be six months at least before he’s genuinely up to the task, but I actually like his disposition. No question he has the ability and will be fine. I have a coworker trying to haze him, I don’t want people getting into his head, so I slap these gestures away as I can for him. It’s well within his right to have a clear mind, without trappings from other people. Apparently the employer has been giving people the “so long it’s been good to know ya” the moment they’ve put in their two weeks notice. My final day is the 23rd, no such action will occur with me. The department is already swamped. It’s been a delightful season of life, I’ve met some people who have been deeply impactful and I’ve learned a lot broadly regarding life. All seasons pass and certainly it is with bitter sweetness, but a fruit beyond season rots, so I must be on my way. It is time. For now I should be leaving here as well, my friend, and I leave you with this, “What is Love?:
In life there is nothing more cherished than love. At its ultimate it is the guiding light. The divine morning star! Man cursed with the body regularly must tame its overbearance to practice a higher loving order. This requires sacrifice. Love is the emotional resonator. It meets ones frequency, ones oscillating force with resonance. At this meeting all is amplified! With harmony it now exists deeper, more resounding, more true, and more dynamic! Love must be tuned to play at the correct key. Once in key, doors open, massive expansion takes place. This is the music of love. This is the treasure of all life. Alas, man knows of the fools gold, that brings men from east to west and west to east..Man cannot wield a pure distillation of love, due to psychophysiology they find it caustic. It burns! They see clearly the toxicity that must be expelled from inside of them, from lack of loving understanding, love in its higher order. Nobody's doing but their own. Love is the medicine, but man doesn’t always have the necessary dose for the task at hand.
Ascendant Vestals: a 2020 concept piece involving a clandestine group of Cyber-Terrorists looking to establish a "fully-distributed nation state". Their tactics are cutting-edge. From the outside they're unorthadox, but inside orthadoxy is strictly adhered! Their inspiration...peculiar. Colliding with a world in disarray!
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Some nights never end
I've seen many of them
Let's roll B-side
After all, I love you
Much pain and degredation
Why do we suffer
Much sex and procreation
Black static abound
The smell of burnt steaks around
Another light year
Trying so hard now
Vying for you and for me
Crying Sunday rain
Cosmic rain is here
Prestine waters cristen me
Glisten on my skin
Observer in you
Is the observer in me
But we still don't see